Back in 2014, my word for the year was “reconnect”. But lately, that word has been haunting me. I feel like I’ve been having out of body experiences ocassionally these past few months and maybe it’s time to once again get back to things that I’ve been missing out on.
1. Reconnect with other people
Too many cancelled coffee dates, too many missed opportunities to bond, too many appointments I could not keep. Some can be blamed on my commitment to work and rakets, some on my introverted self rearing its ugly head, some due to dark phases. But whatever it was, I miss listening to stories of other people in person, catching up on years lost, just sharing a movie or a laugh or coffee, basically being around people I love and who love me. So if you’re up for a date, let’s!
2. Reconnect with writing for myself
The problem sometimes with writing for a living is by the time you’re done with work, you have no more words or energy to write for your own pleasure. So blogs get replaced by micro-blogging, journals get replaced by staring into space, even scrapbooking gets replaced by “yeah il do that when i have more time” and then all the memories accumulate in boxes and folders and files. But now, I am “forcing” myself to go back to my first love or else all these words will forever be lost in limbo or wherever unwritten words go to die.
3. Reconnect with my extroverted self
I always thought I was an extrovert given how talkative and loquacious I am. Or used to be. Or sometimes still am. But the past few years have shown me that I really am an introvert masquerading as an extrovert. But I also know that sometimes I have to let the extrovert come out and play. And so I’ll try my best every once in a while.
4. Reconnect with my body
Okay, it’s not what you think. Health scares have forced me to reevaluate what I eat, what I need to do to keep healthy, and maybe lose a few pounds along the way. Again, this is something I promise myself every year, but i don’t want to get to the point where it will already be too late for me to do anything. I have to face the fact that I will be turning 40 next year, and my body ain’t what it used to be. So far the eating healthier has become a habit (yey semi-keto!) but it’s the exercising that I still have to figure out.
5. Reconnect with singing
My vocal chords and my heart are just aching to let out a few notes into the ether. Somehow, somewhere, I will sing again. I want to feel that rush, that comfort, that giddiness, that longing. It’s been far too long. I just don’t know how or where or when.
6. Reconnect with God
“Wait, but don’t you work in a Christian organization?” You would think it’s easier, but a lot of times it’s not. The reminders are always there to spend more time in studying the Word, in prayer, and in just reflecting on who He is in my life and what I’m supposed to do with my life. It is a daily struggle to remember why I do what I do and why on earth am I here. I think this will be a lifelong struggle. But it is in the struggling that I find answers, more questions, more answers, and the Truth.
How about you? What are you struggling to connect or reconnect with lately? Are you doing any concrete steps in order to “fix that gap”?